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Monday, March 31, 2003

Happiness & Cleaning

This was originally written as a letter, and I'm not sure what I am trying to say, but it's something I've been trying to say for ages, so here it is:

Our lives are not what they should be.

This is a very simple thing and yet it's vastly underrated. It is also ignored very much. But it is true. Don't listen to anyone saying the opposite: it is not okay. You shouldn't be happy with a lonely, colourless and uncreative life even if you feel you deserve it.

And even if your life is not really lonely, colourless and uncreative - is it colourful, creative and shared with other people as much as you would like it to?

I have been tought you can never know what other people feel; and even though I doubt it, I'll only speak for myself: my life isn't what I would like it to be. And it should be what I would like it to be.

Am I saying the world sucks? Yes and no.

The world does suck a lot of the time, possibly most of the time and in most places. And it sucks a lot more than people will admit to... Actually people only admit to it when they want to shock you or scare you or something, it's quite insane and something I haven't managed to put into words yet. So yes the world is a very ugly place indeed; as Rachel once said, bad thigns happen and they happen too often.

On the other hand... Good things happen too, even if they don't happen very often (though sometimes they do) and there are some beautiful, lovely people out there. People who will come into your life and stay and make it better and not once moan about it. I have thought about it long and hard and I have concluded happiness exists.

Oh, and in case you've been wondering: against all odds, I did clean my room.

Posted by Dimitra Daisy

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