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Tuesday, February 25, 2003

Ever felt like giving up? I've felt like giving up.

As Ian told us last week,

If you're any sort of hero, you'll be fighting for what you believe in. You'll get tired, and worn down by the world.

I went out on Friday, and I felt like that. The people I met were sad and cynical and their disapointment was written in their eyes. They didn't hope for much at all and among them I looked like I had fallen off another planet. I missed my computer my friends and my webzine so much I started to worry.

Every time this happens, I come back, turn on my computer and stereo (they don't work very well seperately) and I play Ballad of a Band by Felt. It is a rather sad song and it says:

so come on now and tell me
why there's a void
it's all my fault yes
I'm to blame
ain't got no money
ain't got no fame
and that's why I
feel like giving in
and all those songs
like crystal ball
dismantled king
you know I love them all
but oh I still feel like giving in

So I can sit there and feel sorry for myself. When I'm done, I play another version of it. I don't know much about that band other than it's called They Go Boom! and they have turned Ballad of a Band into something that makes you think of dancing on a summer night instead of jumping off a river bridge and never coming back.

Usually, this consoles me enough to be able to go on. I was unsure as to why it happens but today I realised, or rather I remembered. It is inspiring. And inspiration is what keeps us alive.

Posted by Dimitra Daisy

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